you are right
I have no self control
and it shows
I collapse into
all the attention you
have given me
lately
I bask in all the banter
I wrap every nonsense conversation
around myself
I know it can’t last
but I will soak up all that you
deign to give me
we could never be
anything
real
we will never
carve initials into trees
but I can smile
and attempt to make you laugh
I can try
to outwit you
with words
this has turned into
(hopefully)
the least damaging
seduction
least potent
flirtation
let’s just agree
to be a little more
than friendly
for a bit
until we both
acknowledge
the reality that would never
allow us
any peace
or ability to be
actual lovers
I will lose myself
in this
just a little
for now
I will not think about
the future
and all the men
that would be
a better match for me
and all the girls
who could
love you
more innocently
I will look at you
until you stop
looking at me
I will not touch
but I will dream about it
and if I knew you
in another lifetime
maybe
I would
be completely in love
maybe I would
let you
take me apart
in dark rooms
maybe I would
pledge my everlasting devotion
to your skin
over
and
over
again
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